It has been a hectic 2013.
I went back to school to finish my course. After 6 years of working and just living independently, it was a major change for me. All of my classmates were significantly younger than I am. Although there's a plus for being older, their youth makes me wonder sometimes if the past years were a waste.
But then again, if I did not stop and for once stood up for myself, I would not have experienced everything, met some of the greatest people and live life unsheltered.
As for 2014:
- Determination on Losing Weight
- Focus on Graduating
- Change my Outlook in Life
These are my only aims for now since as a student, everything should revolve around school first. I know it is somewhat boring and I thrive for the drama BUT as for now, memories will quench the thirst. There are poignant feelings every time I see events that friends posts and I'm not there but I will live vicariously through them.
To end this, I would like to say GOODBYE to 10 years of friendship from my ex-best friend. He lived through most of my growing up years. Thank you for introducing me to who I am today. Thank you for making me realize that in friendship, years does not matter. I once planned my future with you and I will never regret that. You gave up on this friendship and I am just letting go.
"Koi" Arias, it was your choice and I hope you are happy with this choice. Your happiness means a lot to me. I am sorry that I was insecure with our friendship BUT you never once assured me through words or actions how important I am to you. I was always in the backseat and I let you. Somtimes I just want to feel that I am special to you. It is too late now. Remember this though: I loved you, I love you and I will always love you.
You got your wish, NO MORE DRAMA FROM ME. This will be the last time I will touch this topic.
~ JMP ~
