Halloween!!!!!!

Filipinos are not that big into Halloween parties and such but this Saturday, I need to divide my time for three parties. Three locations. End to End. Whew! Now, I'm contemplating in boycotting them all! LOLS


As I was on my way home to my parent's house to fetch my newly laundered clothes (yeah, I don't know how to do laundry), ball gowns and to have my dirty clothes laundered by our  helper, I accidentally met this guy I used to date with when I was still in my early teens! Weird! He used to be this cool dancer type but when I saw him earlier, I was like " What happened to you?!" moment. Isn't life ironic?




Preparing for my company's Halloween costume party. Too bad we cannot use original ideas. We chose Little Red Riding Hood Theme for my team since it's the best in the list. My Little Riding Hood would be the goth edition. Watch out Wolf! I am going to hunt you instead! :D

Going on...

Kind of tipsy right now...

I am turning just my first late twenties right now. I just want to forget everything. Friends, Family, people around me.

Sometimes things just does not turn out the way you want it to be. I had mentioned I wanted to be those things but right now.... I do not know. I am contented to be not somebody. I am contented that I am me. If not, then I would regret all the people I met, right?

Jason, am I bad?

And It Finally Happened

things are kind of weird right now. after eight years of being just that and having a line, we stepped out of bounds.

i can never say "i don't do friends" again. ever. 

it was special though. i am his first. what complicated the situation (more than it already is) is that his boyfie, Mark, would arrive tom morning. i don't how i should feel about that. should i feel anything at all?

hm... if i am going to be honest with myself, it is kind of depressing. but that point is, i already knew the situation before it happened.

there is really no one to blame but me.

A New Beggining

Rather than use FB notes to make a blog and be a fool to people you know, it's nice to be anonymous sometimes. I can write whatever I want and not edit anything just because you don't want to offend someone.

It's a bit disconcerting that a  person you consider as a bestfriend for almost 8 years now would change. He is the type of bestfriend who prefers guys rather than girls. We are so close to the point of being nude around each other is a common occurrence. Talking about sex and talking about experiences that would curl your toes.

One night of alcohol(which always happens in the past) would change everything. After 8 years, we almost did it. Not to mention he is my roommate right now. It's complicating my already too complicated life. It's confusing. I do not want to go through this again.



I want him but we can never be more than friends.