Dad and Mom, at their 25th

Sinulog Festival

Wow! I feel so tired for the last few days. I had already promised myself that unless it's not a special occasion, I would not drink and smoke after the Sinulog Festival.

It was a crazy weekend. There were many people in the streets to party for Sinulog. Each year, I realized that Sinulog is not for glorifying anymore but it's a reason for people to party, watch the street dance, and for pigging out. It is a reason for multitude of sins. Hm, I'm not a crazy fanatic and I do believe what is wrong and right but it is really sad how people evolved from the religious connotation that Sinulog possessed in the past. The fireworks were amazing though.

I am starting to exercise again and maybe in a week or two I will go back and enroll in a gym. I am not sure about that yet but I am going to take care of myself for sure. Eat healthy food, lessen all the bad vices and just positive thoughts to attract positive energy.

I'm planning on adding more ink to my back. A big cross would be a good addition. Thinking about it still but by February, I would definitely have added a new design.

A New Lease of Life

It has been a crazy 2011. My wish for 2012 is to have it crazier.

It's my desire to have a baby this year. It's an age that my heart just wanted to love someone unconditionally and someone who would not leave you when the next nice thing comes.

I had the talk with my BFF about it and we have already outlined the plan on what to do and how to handle it. I'm just hoping we can stick to our plans for this year before the baby comes. I am really excited about it.

I would need to curb my lifestyle and stop my vices. I'm happy I am doing it with Bes. At least the father of my child is someone that I do love and is my soul-mate.

Second Place

Earlier, before going home to my parent's place for a much needed vacation, Bes, Mai and I went to IT Park, Cebu to get some cash from the ATM and eat brunch. While we were on the line, some of Bes' friends from another company saw him. He introduced us and he introduced Mai first and his "girlfriend" and me as a second girlfriend. I just let it slip by. We had our brunch and I went to V's place because he was inflicted with the pox. We talked for a while and I went to SM City Cebu to buy some stuff my dad needs. 

On the way home, I was in a trance when suddenly a thought kept on creeping to my consciousness. Bam! Second Place by my Bestfriend! Wow! I texted him and I told him that it just hit me. Am I not your number one girl anymore? Is she the one you want to be with? 

I can't help my insecurities because he would always be my number male friend. I know it's not a game of who should be first or not but, it hurts. 

It may not be a big deal to you but in my end, it is. It's not that my world revolves around you but at least do not let me compete with other girls. I do not even compete with your boyfriends, ex-boyfriends, flings and one night stands because I knew in your end I was your number one girl. But now....

I'm tired already. I guess I need to live with that.

Heart.... Heart... Heart...

Greatest gift for Christmas

Rain, Rain go Away...

The country was hit by a terrible crisis due to the typhoon Sendong. I am happy and sad at the same time. Happy that we did not get the brunt of the typhoon and we just experienced the heavy rains and sad because of the people who were affected by it. 

In our own little ways, we helped and gave some. It is really a tragedy since it was before Christmas. Instead of celebrating for holidays, people were praying for the safety of others. 

In cases like this, I would always think that people had ti coming. It is just nature's way of answering the cause. It is the effect of what people had done to nature. It is just the balance of the universe.

First Body Art

Work has not given me something to be challenged about anymore. It seems that I am in a suspended motion. Not moving forward but not also moving backwards. When these happens, my thoughts just turns to blackness.

I decided to get my first ink. Since 2007,  it was my unending battle to get one or not. At last, due to feeling bleak and empty, I wanted to feel the good pain again. I did not regret getting one even if it's not allowed.

Note: Upload picture later.

Huh, I do not know how to turn this! LOL!!