Between A Rock And A Hard Place

I should have never helped out a friend in the first place.

First, I moved to a new place so that she can have someone who can share a rent with.

Second, I asked if I can bring her dog to my parent's place since I can see that she is stressed out and does not need a reminder of her ex-husband, which is the reason why we moved in together in the first place.

Now, she's moved out of her place and wants the dog back since she has a new life. 

Also, my parent's wants compensation for the food and the care that they provided for the dog since the dog is living with my parent's for almost 5 months now. 

I am between a rock and a hard place right now. What I will do is just return the dog and pay my parents so that both parties will be happy. (I don't even have a job right now)

And this will be the last time I will help out someone. 


~ JMP ~

Mountains Out of Molehills

All people are really fickle minded, not only women. Sometimes you may think that since as friends, you are so close that jokes are okay but in the end, it backfires and all people get angry for you on something that there's no basis at all. Making a big deal out of nothing.

If it was something to be guilty about then go ahead and get mad but if it's just a joke, how come people don't get it? Why is it okay for other people to make fun of me but it's not okay for me to make fun of them?

I guess the fickleness of the situation really bugs me. If they do not want to be friends anymore then don't. I'm tired of being used. I'm tired of pleasing everybody.

I cried. This is my first time crying for a straight friend. Wow. No more.

You do things for your "friends" just to please them but in the end, just a little mistake can ruin everything. I'm tired of saying I'm sorry for a joke that went wrong. As a matter of fact, they won't hear me tell jokes anymore.

What really irks me most is that the joke was based on nothing but gossip. There are secrets that could have been used as a joke but no, since it was too close to home, it was not used because both parties does not know each others secrets at all. Sighs.


I am just happy that I have real friends who loves and accepts me for who I am, hung ups and all. That's what I am thankful for right now.

No more drama. I'm done with this shit.

~ JMP ~

Going Through Life

New Year, Valentine's Day, Graduation Rites... Just some events happening month by month.

It has been a tedious cycle now. I don't know if I can hold on any longer to this job. I'ts been almost 2 years since I first started and here I am, still in the same level. 

I know I'm being a brat complaining about a good job with an above minimum wage but does it always have to be like this?

Everything in my like is a complete 0. Love = 0, Family = 0, Savings = 0, Health = 0, Academics = 0

Congratulations on being 0.

October to December

it's been hectic these past few months.

My birthday last October... Wow, I'm 27 now.

Christmas Parties...

And fantasizing about someone...

Ups and Downs. I have that but I still can't wait to see what 2013 has in store for me.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all!

Promises broken

Sometimes we tend to make some promises to ourselves that we will do this and that. I broke too many promises already.

1. Finish my Wattpad story.

2. Diet and Exercise.

3. Drink to a minimum.

4. Save.

But what I did not break was the promise I will stay the same with you. I guess yours was just a drunken moment. Some friend you are.

I'm free!

No more anger. No more hurt. It feels like I am free of all negativity in my life. To forgive, to forget and to move on with life. Thank you for the chance of being positive again and letting me see that there's always a positive twist in every bad thing that would happen into our lives. The challenge is in finding it.

On another note, my mom needs to have a biopsy again. This time it's for her cervix. Although it is quite depressing if you really think about it but I know everything will be okay. I just need to think positively about this.

Not being hypocritical, even if I do not pray like how others would pray, my mantra is "Lord, let it be okay". 

Thank you.

~ JMP ~

I can't take it anymore

I guess I can't take it anymore. This is where I can be true so why hide at all?

Have you experienced the feeling of being bittersweet yet so poignant that you can't pinpoint which is the bitter and the sweet?

You trusted someone and you can't imagine how a trust can turn so treacherous... The bitterness I felt was because I considered you as a friend. I thought, of all people, you would understand. You would support me. But there you are, just because I was not there, you kissed him. Was it sweet?

I need to wash my hands on this. You said you miss me. He said, he misses me. I can't just see the two of you and think of you as friends anymore. You knew and he knew how I felt about him. You know how I treasure our friendship and how I treasure what he and I had.

I don't' have the right, I know. But you also don't have the right to back-stab me even if you did not mean to. It's over, Lestat.